hes gone... :(

180909- the day i get to speak, see,shared stories/secrets,joked,laughed and cried with/for him for the last time.....my dearest despatch clerk, Abg Shaiful, 38 years old. And it happened just 2 days before Hari Raya.

He is known as a reliable,responsible, hardworking,helpful, jovial, wonderful and nice person to be with. He's the chatterbox and "paling kecoh" in the office. Basically, everyone have no problems with him and no doubt he's in everybody's good book. hes someone whom u dun have to doubt his sincerity and trust.

He, whom ive always regard him as my bro, my dad, my mum, my fren, my click and my collegue, has left his last breathe on 180909 @ 445pm while hes still on duty,otw back to office to return some cheques. We really shared ALOT of memories tgthr in HEATEC JIETONG. Ups and downs together. he really plays a good role as a big bro and a father to me. he the only one been giving me moral supports and advices for almost about anythg. He's the one who's been keeping on counting down and remind me of my wedding day which is just next month. He's just so excited about it. We really do shared alot of secrets. He always helped me with alot of things and back me up when there is some complications happened. Every morning, without fail he will come and sit at my place to chit chat non stop. Urrgghhh!! I just miss him alot! I just cant bear to see his empty seat rite infront of me now.

Anyways, it happens when he was riding along West Coast Rd towards Tuas, when sumhow he lost control of his bike and a rubbish truck drove over him and left. Dunnoe if it still considered as hit and run case. He from lane 2 and flew off to lane 1. The first person who discovered this tragedy was happened to be his own good frend who happens to ride at the same road. It was such a terrifiying incident and a great loss for us, as hes the only despatch clerk and a very great person..

What makes it even worst is that hes leaving his lovely soft spoken housewife and 4 little young children, eldest is primary 4 and youngest is just 3 years old. I really wonder how is the family gonna cope. Its such a pity to witness the total grievness of his whole family during the funeral on Saturday @ Woodlands. even i myself couldnt stand and couldnt even hold back my tears.

The last few words he said to fiance and me was.. "nanti jgn lupe datang rumah aku k..", out of sudden. Didnt know that the invitation was meant to be the last time to see him. Just last few weeks, it was my own brother who almost gone and now its my dearest collegue.

Whatever it is, we'll just pray for him and hope that he'll be placed with the good ones. And i would like to seek a lil bit of your favour to sedekahkan Al-Fateha to him semoga rohnya dicucuri dengan rahmat. Amiin!

Abg, ure gonna always be remembered. Ika takkan pernah lupakan jasa baik abg selama ini..Ika betul2 hargai segala nasihat yang abang berikan pada ika..terima kasih banyak kerana menjaga Ika disini. Semoga abang ditempatkan di tempat orang yang baik dan dicucuri rahmat. Ika dan yang lain semua amat menyayangi abang.......

Him, with white cap,tgthr with his family and us during our last BBQ nite.

At our HR Manager's wedding dinner. Him in checkered shirt.

Me and him

The great kakis, the close ones...

EID MUBARAK

KEPADA SEMUA UMAT ISLAM YANG MANYAMBUT HARI LEBARAN YANG PENUH BERMAKNA INI,

IKA INGIN MENGAMBIL KESEMPATAN INI UNTUK MENGUCAPKAN,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MINAL AIDIL WALFA'IZIN...

SEMOGA BULAN YANG MULIA DAPAT KITA BERMAAF2AN ANTARA SESAMA INSAN..

KERANA BELUM TENTU KITA DAPAT BERTEMU LAGI PADA BULAN RAMADHAN DAN BULAN MULIA INI PADA TAHUN AKAN DATANG.

OLEH ITU, IKA SEKELUARGA BERSERTA TUNANG, SHAFIE, INGIN MENYUSUN 10 JARI UNTUK MEMINTA AMPUN DAN MAAF DARI HUJUNG RAMBUT HINGGA HUJUNG KAKI KEPADA MANA2 PIHAK YANG SEKIRANYA KAMI ADA TERKASAR BAHASA,TERSILAP KATA, MENYINGGUNG PERASAAN, TERNGUMPAT DI DEPAN ATAU DI BELAKANG, TER..TER..TER.. TU SUME, HARAP DIMAAFIN YER...

MANUSIA MANE TAK BUAT SILAP KAN....DAN JUGA HALALKAN SEGALA MAKAN MINUM KAMI YANG MANA PERNAH BELANJA KAMI KE...KASI KAMI KE...HEHE!!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST, TAQABALALLAHU WAMINA WAMINKUM!

SEMOGA SEMUANYA SENTIASA SIHAT SEJAHTERA YA....

AMIIIN!!!!

Outing with the Minahs + Partners = RocK my SOckZ!

Here are some of the pics taken during our Iftar and lepaking at Town with the Minahs and the Lakis..hehe!! Enjoice!!! =)

the RECENT ones..

Well, guess its been some time since i update bout my recent happenings around me..Been busy with my crib's preps for raya, as well as for my wedding preps,of cos. But actually ive always wanted to pen down some of the things happened, in fact lots of thgs, but the urge and the time just doesnt meet at the rite time..

So, since now the orang2 "besau" are having their meeting, so.....here i am.."BERMAHARAJALELA"...Shhhhhh!!!! Hahahha! And i assume this post gonna be a superr long one...endure la k.. ;)

Hmm...So far, since the day mama papa went off to Umrah, we, the siblings have been good, alhamdulillah...co-operating and concerning bout each other more..thats a good thing. Kakak have been the chef, yuyun have been the supervisor and me, the assistant of both the chef and supervisor kot..? hahaha!!
Not bad jgk kakak aku uh...since mama tkde, we've been eating quite a number of good n healthy food la..Mmmm..yumm! One thg i salute bout her is, she dares to try out new things wen it comes to cooking or baking...sedap or tak sedap, tu sume tolak tepi...As for yuyun, well, i think i shd say shes the supervisor and also the treasurer...cos shes the one yg sebok nak beli tu la, nak beli ni la, nak anu tu la, nak anu ni la..TAPI, yg buatnye,orang lain lorr...*flickshair*..But ade jgk la die "tolong".....(mmmm....takot die bace jgk ler..hahakz!)

Then on last Tuesday, had my Iftar with the Minahs, Nurul, Sue and Ida. Not forgetting our partners this time round. Had our Iftar at Sakura Far East Plaza. We really have a good ice-breaker among the guys, had a good lame jokes and crazy laughters...kekek uh drg! They rock my undies n socks! haha! (tambah2 je aku) lol! Had our cammywhores session too!! Will try to upload here k..if time permits.
Then the following 2 days i stayed at home je...do watever i can do...Ok, bedek..i just lepak je..kekeke!

On fri, another Iftar with my dearest besties, Munik, Fid n Haizal..tak jauh, dekat2 je..at Nasi Ayam Penyet Ria @ JP. I arrived first, followed by Muni n Fid. Accompanied Fi to get her Raya shoes first then straight away proceed to the restaurant. Although we're quite "kiasu" to chop the place 1 hour earlier, at least we're qute lucky by not to have to queue and wait for soo long to eat. Even after we breakfast, they were wtill there queuing up..After a while, Haizal joined us as hes from his soccer training.
Well, the food was of cos undeniable SEDAPPP esp the sambal, BUT the rice is SUPER little, and it cost us $7 inc GST..but WITHOUT the soup! Ggrr....So ladies, a note for u. If u wanna eat Nasi Ayam penyet Ria @ JP, do bring along ur Bfs/fiance/hubby along k..! Seeeeepppp sikit...kekeke! *keningnaik2*
After that, as usual, went to our common spot, lepakking, catch things up, plan for my big day, share each others experince and lots of things....Well, i just miss them soo much!

Wait, did i just mentioned that Fid bring along some pixies during our zaman kekentalanz? And that really made us pecah perot gilerr looking at it and keep on mocking at each others muke taik! hahahah! Cute!! And that really shows how time really flies...

The next day, Sat, woke up quite late..late at noon. Actually baby woked me up in the morning but i fell aslp again for a few times..until i felt sooo tired of sleeping. And that is only wen i realised its already noon. Plan of the day is to go to baby's crib to help him n mum out for some spring cleaning..kesian tgk drg,rumah2 tak terkemas2..tu la, thats one of the reason y i dun like shift hours job..susah nah nak buat keje rumah wen times like this..So back again, after dragged myself up, i siap2 and went to his place myself by public, whc i really hate n lazy to take NEL! Tu takpe, after alight at Serangoon, nak tunggu bus die to Hougang punye la lambat gile!! i think kalau i sempat ehkehk pon bus tak sampai2 gaknye..

When i board the bus, baby asked if i bought for him his cigarette or not, cos earlier on he ask for my favour to buy for him..Skali akak lupe noh!!! Then i told him la i hvnt..then sumhow, he mcm disappointed and binget..
When die binget, i ape lagi, binget jgk la..yes, my fault i forgot to buy, and i da penat2 jauh2 gi sane, n still have yet to jalan jauh2 just to carik kedai (im still unfamiliarise with hougang) and buy him his pathetic cigarette! Looking at the time, it almost 7pm.da nk buka. Skali luckyi saw one coffeeshop and bought for him lor! Walaupun hati byk berat nk belikan CIGARETTE, tapi apakan daya...singa da lapar... hehe!

After i got home, i passed the ciggies to him and said, "jangan lupe makan and telan skali rokok ni eh!"...lupe nk belikan rokok mcm lupe nak beli bende berharga gitu! geram aku!! heesh! Then managed to help some things at home uh....when his mum mentioned that shes going out to the mesjid and baby sending her...so im all alone at hes place lor..after awhile, baby got home, he had hes sleep first before we went out to geylang as planned.
Die tidor, aku ape lagi...kemas2 la lagi ape2 yg patot. Until when i was ironing hes clothes to for for geylang later, he woked up as surprised that ive pushed back hes mum's bed back to the wall after he've painted it..i claimed," takpe la..bukannye berat katil mak tu.." (padahal2 seh!!! Nak terberak tolak katil tu adelah! haha!!)

After siap2 sume, off we go to geylang....rched thr ard 1130 but we only got park our car at pathetically 1 hour later ok!! Imagine how sesak was that?? Then we just jalan tanpa arah..tot of looking around for baju but seems there nothing caught our eyes, so we tawaf abit more, bought our must-buy dendeng, then he drove me back home...

And yesterday, whole day at home...bangun tido ingat nak tak out the the two shelfs, skali i only managed to pasang kpl patung i yg da pecah, then gedebaaap!! TERRRRR-tido..heheh!!! Tak disengajekan ok! Tau2 bangun je da nk masuk waktu buka and the shelf was taken out by my dearest yuyun..hehehe! Then after buka, took my shower and then watched tv tillll late night..and boring sgt, online je lor....tgk time rase2 da patot kene tido gitukan, tros baaaap! Ngorok lagi lor...hehe!

So, that was what ive been doing the whole last week...nothing much tho'..Aniways, i dunno y sumhow im feeling soo sayang and lurpe2 my baby loadz! Hmm...verry manja n mushy2 gitu, tapi tak lebeh2 la..nk step mahal jgk ok! hahahaha!! Maybe i just anxiously cant wait for the day to come gaknye...Well, just pray the best for us ya!!

Da da....tengkok da perit ni...gue cabutz dulu ya semua!!

Selamat berpuasa dan selamat hari raya, minal aidil wal'faizin... =))

Could have GONE..-040909-

It was truly a shock and relieved news for everyone in Zainal's family yesterday...
I just got home from work in the afternoon ard 5pm. When i entered my home, i saw my big cuzzie bro and my lil cuz at my home too,helping out with some things at home for raya preps. Other than them, theres only mama,my sis n my domestic helper at home..Usually, by then,my lil bro is already at home, came back from school. But hes not at sight. When asked where is he, mama said he went out to send mama n papa's luggage to the airport.

Just a few minutes later, i was on the fone with my fren discussing bout some things for my wedding when sumhow i saw my big cuz bro answered his fone and i overheard him saying,"What?? Kerete papa terbalek???". And so, everyone in the house was stunned and verryyy shocked of cos and i politely told my fren that i will call him back later. When i saw my cuz bro stopped everythg wat hes doin and hes rushed out of the house immediately, i managed to ask him wat happened. He anxiously told mama n me n sis that my lil bro just met and accident and the car was OVERTURNED!


Innalillahiwainnailahirojiun..-that was wat the 3 of us said rite after my cuz bro told us wat happened...me,still in my working attire tot of following him too but he didnt allowed as to accompany mama at home,to cool her down. Tears already filled our eyes and we're jus hoping and praying that my lil bro would be fine. Then we continued doing the housework while keep on wondering with lots of questions in our mind....


Then i tried calling my bro and surprisingly he answered his phone, with a normal but yet phobia kinda tone. Asked if hes fine, but the conversation didnt last long as he need to put down cos the TP is interrogating him. Fine. At least it do make me feel a lil bit relieved that he could still answer his fone.


Every now and then i called up my cuz bro for updates ,hus already at the scene. He said that the car was "RANAP" giler!!!!! And so he MMS me and even took a video of the fully damaged car. When i received the MMS and look at the car, its sungguhhhh REMUK! Showed mama n sis the MMS and mama was definitely shocked and cried but after a while she tried to control her tears..Then we girls at home continued preparing our break fast foods cos its already almost time to eat. Each of our heart still dun feel real good. Half and hour later, the door was opened by sumone and it was my lil bro! he came back wif my bil. And its such a miracle that he still come back in one piece! Just that he had some cuts on his elbow and his right eye were red a lil bit swollen. Right when he entered the house, he went to mama hu just finished her Maghrib prayers, and they hugged each other tightly and cried. Which made me n sis cried too.. It was truly a relieve that he is fine and he didnt even have go to the hospital. My bro then explained to us how it happened.


My bro, whom just passed his TP last month was driving at Clementi Road along Cheeseprata shop. He was from the 2nd lane, trying to change to the left lane when sumhow he suddenly saw some kind of big insect or a small animal jumped on to the windscreen and he was shocked by that. And so, cos of that,he eventually hit up on the curb with great impct and then hit the tree which made the car overturned and spin twice. By then, my bro's face was already cover by the airbag and he didnt know what else happened. But after the car stopped, he thought he's still on that ame left lane so he tried to get out from the car when he smell the engine gas.. He wanted to get out from the windscreen mirror which already broken into pieces but afraid he might get stucked so he decided to get out from the passenger side of the window with the help of other people around. He even heard sumone said that they're sure the driver could have died. But there he is, still manage to stand, which is miracle. Alhamdulillah...tuhan masih memberinya peringatan and beri beliau peluang untuk hidup dan tebus segala dosa...Syukur alhamdulillah..

I just dunnoe how and wats gona happen if he lost the chance to live again....Hes the one and only bro we have. Hes the only bro which is also my wrestling partner. We joked and quarrelled alot as well. He, whom always have a passion to be a policeman, who always being pampered by papa and love to learn new things. Whatever it is, what matter most, is that hes still alive and hes much moreee precious than the wholly damaged car...Alhamdulillah,amiin!

PRESSURE!!!

We're left with just 1 month 2 weeks before the day comes....

Now i could already feel the pressure and im feeling soo intense....lots of things in my mind now...yes, ALOT! From wedding preparations, house preparations, raya preparations, financial, honeymoon, my job and the life after marriage...

Left with just a week before mama n papa leave for Mekkah and will only be back on the 2nd day of Raya...Within this pathetic week, there's still alot of things to be done at home..again, its ALOT! Actually i pity mama for staying up till late night, cleaning up her big room...not just that, she have yet to settle with the kitchen stuffs. Not that im not helping but i just dunno whr to start to help her..and besides thats, i have my own things to be settled too..rite? Haiz....Watever it is,hopefully EVERYTHING will be done smoothly in time...insyallah!

Next thing, bout my other half....
Since the first few days during puasa, i seriously dunnoe why ive been too sensitive, too petty, too cranky and my mood swing really suckx big time....ive been throwing tantrums to him..for watever reasons it may be...somehow i became soooo petty! Buat salah sikit je, marah...merajok. Haiz...dun say him, even me noticed it myself. But i seriously dunnoe why i tend to feel angry easily lately...especially to my dearest man...poor him. :(

im sooo sorryyy love...its not that i want it to be this way but i myself seriously got no idea wat has got into me and wats sooo wrong with my mood swings...i myself noticed too that my attitude have been like from bad to worse...im truly sorry baby...no matter what, my love for u have never fade..not even once sayang..please know that ure the only one i love and need so much apart from my family..

Hmm....both dearest n me are going thru soo much pressure preparing our stuffs..especially in terms of financial... if i'd known and listen to mama's advice from nong nong time ago to save money, i think there wouldn't be much probs now..
haiz....y nowadays we have to think of LOTS of things at one time??

Gggrrrrr...Money money..where are u moneyy??
Besides all that, im still thinking whether or not to tender by next month? Cos ive tried taking the company's transport back to dearest home. From office(tuas) to chua chu kang(1st stop), and then bedok(2nd stop). Got out from work at 430 and reached bedok at 530pm. Have yet to take the straight bus to dearest place(hougang). it was 30 mins journey ok!! I hate taking the bus for too long!! mabok!!!
So, total time from tuas to bedok is 1 and half hours...BUT that is not included the TOA PAYOH(3rd stop) yet! i think it would be a total time of 2 pathetic hours in the van + bus...

Going back time is still ok la, but wat about the morning time going to work?? Pukol brape nak kuar gi keje seh kalau da stay hougang???? previously i heard it will be at 610am from bedok...but now da tambah choa chu kang plak..mesti kene kuar even earlier ald kan..grrr!!!
Pening la sehhhhhh!!! Haiz!
Pressuree aku!! hmm..k la...sabar je aku bulan2 puasa ni...hehe! So, to tender..or not to tender??

hmm... k la peeps..gtg ald la..bye! Selamat berbuka nanti! ;)

Once again...

Once again...

i will be celebrating my first day of Raya without Mama. Infact, without the presence of Papa as well. Just with my other siblings and my sis's family. My very first time celebrating first day of Raya without my parents. How lame and bored can it be..? How sad..hmm..

But whats important here is that, im sure they are in good hands, performing their small Haj in Mekkah.

As for Mama, its been already 2 times she left us family at home during first day of Raya. It actually made us learn the hardship of preparing our home for Raya, the meaning of co-operations, sourcing out for raya cookies and all...i wonder how Mama manage to do MOST of the thgs for preparation during raya. Shes the BOSS, shes the SUPERVISOR, shes the CHEF..At times i wonder how life would be like without a Mum..I just cant even imagine myself when mama is not around..i just couldnt! I just envy my mama soo much!

However, my parents will be back by 2nd day of raya je la...hehehe! So, while parents gonna be away, ive to get quite a number of things to be done by myself! Gonna be kinda tedious kan...especially when mama's is not around to supervise me..

when they comes back from Umrah, it will be exactly 2 weeks before my big day..so at least i must get my stuffs 90% done by then..Hmm...gonna be my VERRY VERRY BUSY MONTH for me..

So peeps, do hope and pray the best for me during the whole preparation and also for the day itself ya...thank you! ;)

19 Hadith Mengenai Kelebihan Wanita

I get this from a fren in Multiply..Very useful tho'.. Have time to read through this and you'll be surprised urself..especially WOMEN... =)

1. Doa perempuan lebih makbul daripada lelaki kerana sifat penyayangnya yang lebih kuat daripada lelaki. Ketika ditanya kepada Rasulullah s.a.w. akan hal tersebut, jawab Baginda s.a.w., "Ibu lebih penyayang daripada bapa dan doa orang yang penyayang tidak akan sia-sia".

2. Apabila seseorang perempuan mengandung janin dalam rahimnya, maka beristighfarlah para malaikat untuknya. Allah s.w.t. mencatatkan baginya setiap hari dengan 1,000 kebajikan dan menghapuskan darinya 1,000 kejahatan

3. Apabila seseorang perempuan mulai sakit hendak bersalin, maka Allah s.w.t. mencatatkan baginya pahala orang yang berjihad pada jalan Allah s.w.t.

4. Apabila seseorang perempuan melahirkan anak, keluarlah dia dari dosa-dosa seperti keadaan ibunya melahirkannya.

5. Apabila telah lahir anak lalu disusui, maka bagi ibu itu setiap satu tegukan daripada susunya diberi satu kebajikan.

6. Apabila semalaman ibu tidak tidur dan memelihara anaknya yang sakit, maka Allah s.w.t. memberinya pahala seperti memerdekakan 70 hamba dengan ikhlas untuk membela agama Allah s.w.t.

7. Barangsiapa yang menggembirakan anak perempuannya, darjatnya seumpama orang yang sentiasa menangis kerana takutkan Allah s.w.t. dan orang yang takutkan Allah s.w.t., akan diharamkan api neraka ke atas tubuhnya.

8. Barangsiapa membawa hadiah, (barang makanan dari pasar ke rumah lalu diberikan kepada keluarganya, maka pahalanya seperti bersedekah). Hendaklah mendahulukan anak perempuan daripada anak lelaki. Maka barangsiapa yang menyukakan anak perempuan seolah-olah dia memerdekakan anak Nabi Ismail.

9. Tiap perempuan yang menolong suaminya dalam urusan agama, maka Allah s.w.t. memasukkan dia ke dalam syurga lebih dahulu daripada suaminya (10,000 tahun).

10. Perempuan apabila sembahyang lima waktu, puasa bulan Ramadhan, memelihara kehormatannya serta taat akan suaminya, masuklah dia dari pintu syurga mana sahaja yang dikehendaki.

11. Wanita yang solehah (baik) itu lebih baik daripada 1,000 lelaki yang soleh.

12. Aisyah berkata, "Aku bertanya kepada Rasulullah s.a.w, siapakah yang lebih besar haknya terhadap wanita? Jawab Rasulullah s.a.w., "Suaminya". "Siapa pula berhak terhadap lelaki?" Jawab Rasulullah s.a.w, "Ibunya".

13. Apabila memanggil akan engkau dua orang ibubapamu, maka jawablah panggilan ibumu dahulu.

14. Wanita yang taat akan suaminya, semua ikan-ikan di laut, burung di udara, malaikat di langit, matahari dan bulan semua beristighfar baginya selama mana dia taat kepada suaminya serta menjaga sembahyang dan puasanya.

15. Wanita yang taat berkhidmat kepada suaminya akan tertutup pintu-pintu neraka dan terbuka pintu-pintu syurga. Masuklah dari mana-mana pintu yang dia kehendaki dengan tidak dihisab.

16. Syurga itu di bawah tapak kaki ibu.

17. Wanita yang tinggal bersama anak-anaknya akan tinggal bersama aku (Nabi s.a.w) di dalam syurga.

18. Barangsiapa mempunyai tiga anak perempuan atau tiga saudara perempuan atau dua anak perempuan atau dua saudara perempuan lalu dia bersikap ihsan dalam pergaulan dengan mereka dan mendidik mereka dengan penuh rasa takwa serta bertanggungjawab, maka baginya syurga.

19. Daripada Aisyah r.a. "Barangsiapa yang diuji dengan sesuatu daripada anak-anak perempuan lalu dia berbuat baik kepada mereka, maka mereka akan menjadi penghalang baginya daripada api neraka."

Sekian, Wassalam...