Endurance

Im just plain tired. Tired of some tiny plain arguments. Enuff of all those before. Please dun bring it forward. All i can say here is ENDURE...

Just hate the pin-points and doubts. Its easy to point out people's mistake but do u even recognise ur own mistakes?? Think about it.

With just a simple agreement and a meaningful signature, it just change the whole situation. It change almost everything. Even myself. Nevertheless, im happy with things now. Im not regretting it..NEVER! Ive given my true deep love, my heart n soul for this pure relationship and marriage. Insyallah with God's blessings and guidance, i hope we would be able to pull through whatever hardship he had planned for us. Maybe not now but in future.

There's still alot lot more things that need to be settled and done with. Lots of plans listed. But still if its with God's permit. As for me, lots of goals to achieve. To learn cooking as much as possible. To take up driving license. To take up make up course. To learn more bout domestic matters. Learning from people's experience is the best i thought.

Sumhow im just afraid that i can never be a good, responsible, loyal, understanding or filial wife to my hubby. Somehow something just pulled me down. i dun noe wat. But insyallah, i wont be giving in to it and stay strong.

Baba syg, if ure reading this blog, whc i assume you would, i just would like to say that im sorry if ive always been a heartbreaker to u. Never would i want it to happen but it just happened. Maybe. Im sorry if im unable to reach up to ur standard of being a wifey. However, im still trying and will always strive to do the best n be the best among the rest for you. Never would i wanna be rude to u but im just trying to stand for my rights too. I hope u will able to accept me for who i am and all the flaws thats within me. Im sorry if i cant be perfect enuff.

Please know that ive never even have the thought of putting u aside syg. ure always the number one priority that ive got now. Ive accepted you and all ur flaws too. Im willing to stay put with all flaws u have till the end of our lives ba...ure my strength, ure my pillar, ure my other half, ure my everything baby. No one will ever get to replace u baba. However, i would appreciate so much too if i get that little respect from u as well. Hope u understand darling.

Till then...im outz!